＊［＊Do Something Poetic＊］＊

The second day of the recording: A day of emotional breakdown.

Tears running down my cheeks, I stared at the words in the book. Hardly taking any information inside my brain, I decided to go back home earlier than I had scheduled. I watched two movies at home, but I was still upset. So the happiness today should be the efforts that I tried to cheer myself up.

Joy

Life seems excruciatingly painful. Instead of numbing all the negative feelings by keeping silent, I decide to record small pieces of happiness in life, believing everything will get better in this way.

After a long struggle, I bravely declined the offer early in the morning. Since I made the decision, I should face the challenges which are about to appear.

I changed the place where to study today. A library which is near the place I rent was chosen. At the corner of the library, I picked a seat. !STUDY! After finishing my lunch and returning to my seat, I found a cute boy, aged 7 or 8, who sat on the seat across mine stared at me, smiling. Seeing the kindness, I replied with my smile. Every time we had eye contact, we smiled at each other. Before he left, he said “goodbye” to me. (Not so much expensive gifts or big meals as a sincere smile or warm support is what I long to have from my BF and never happens…haha) Still a lovely encounter!  

I also received a call from a friend who I have not seen for a while. He shared me some minor changes of our university where he just visited and we arranged to meet in person next week.

回到了家鄉，卻有種根紮不回這塊土地的哀傷。

在電話或是書信中感到原本的朋友如今都有其忙碌的生活，而自己不知何時從團體中的一份子變成可有可無的過客。聽到有機會再約，都會害怕，似乎那代表的意思是遙遙無期。

走在捷運站，竟然刻意放慢腳步，一廂情願尋找一個多停留一秒的眼神，卻不得已地被摩肩擦踵的人潮推著走，或聽到快步前進的人哼了一聲，大肆抗議著我的慢條斯理造成他的困擾或不便。

"Yor English is good..."

"Thank you, but I do not want to be good. I want to be EXCELLENT!"

昨天當我把這句話吐出口的時候，啊～我才發現，對！這是我想做的～

與其花時間在不開心中打轉，到不如好好來學習～

趁著這個念頭還在盤旋時，昨晚馬上下定決心今天一早去旁聽英語授課的經濟學

如果現在閉上眼,靜下心,你會聽到甚麼聲音?

是廚房冰箱的運轉聲,或是不小心飛進房間內的飛蛾振翅聲,還是窗外呼嘯而過的機車聲~

似乎我們只有在輾轉難眠的夜裡,才會感受到這些聲響在我們的身旁

想想其實大大小小的聲音都在,只是我們有沒有靜下心來聆聽

Too many sounds inside of me....

I want to seize the current moment whereas I am haunted by the concerns of the coming future....

I enjoy being alone.... BUT only from time to time...I dread being alone all my life....

I trust my inituition but it fails me *sometimes.* (It depends on what is at issue...haha...)

屬於我的就勇敢追求，不屬於我的也要勇敢放手～

像一隻貓很想去了解不同圈圈的生活~

會好奇年紀小的孩子被甚麼事物所吸引

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Nowadays, I am obsessed with tress. They seemed to dance, to sing, and to laugh when I gazed at them. They are more like a soothing companion to me than a mere object stands dully outside my window. To capture their beauty, I tried to paint the tree, a tree that is not seen by eyes but felt by heart, a tree that does not stand still but spins around...

Sometimes, I simply sit alone in a square,staring at a lamp sparkling or listening to the wind passing through the trees..

一盞燈／一把椅／一棵樹，

是最初的構圖，但孤伶伶地太過悲情了，特地補上另一棵樹和第一棵樹做伴:)。